Hiding in the Shadows

Update

I was asked a little while ago what I have been up to, seeing as I had not posted anything on DA in quite some time.  Well one of the reasons I have not posted any new work, is because I have not produced any.  I almost never draw any more, and I paint even less.  Nothing inspires me.

I continue to work with computers, but I have stopped designing as well.  I changed jobs about 4 months ago in an effort to spark some life into my career, only to end up hating where I am now.

To top everything off art and career wise, last November I suffered a type B Aortic Dissection, with a Malperfusion of the lower right extremities.  In other words, the vein leaving my heart ripped, and the artery in my groin gave way, and I lost blood flow to my leg.  The artery was repaired via surgery, but the Dissection is being treated medically.  My blood is thinned, and my heart rate slowed so that the flow in the damaged vein is gentler, and lighter basically.  I have to live with this for the rest of my life, and it has not been easy.  Most days I feel crappy, and I walk around waiting for the other shoe to drop.  The docs tell me I am doing well, but it is hard to get the strange feelings out of my head.

So in the end, I am medicating every day for the rest of my life.  I can not life anything over 50 pounds for the rest of my life. And I follow a no salt added diet. (Which is okay, because I was never a big fan of salt anyways.)

So in a nut shell that is what I have been up too.